Whoa, another post from Kiki in the same week?? No, I’m not ill, I just wanted to clarify a few things.
Anyone who has seen my post “Pedestals and Perspectives” will know that I was upset at the time of writing, and wasn’t exactly thinking clearly. I’m not saying that I regret writing it, but the person it was about is someone I love a lot- and they saw it.
The problem with writing on the internet is that you can’t always express yourself in a way that in real life would make people understand. On the internet, you can’t hear the tone of voice, or see the expression on their face as they pour their soul out.
When I wrote P&P, I wasn’t saying that he is a bad person, or that I don’t love him anymore, I was merely trying to turn my hurt into words; which evidently didn’t go down well. I still stand by my advice, don’t put people on pedestals; because nobody is perfect on this planet, everybody will at some point do or say something that you won’t like, and there’s nothing you can do about it. You will get hurt. But, if you don’t put them on a pedestal, it will hurt a hell of a lot less. If you ignore my advice and put someone on a pedestal, it’s no-one’s fault but your own- they don’t expect you to put them on one, they’re just being themselves. You can’t be angry at someone for not living up to your unrealistic expectations, and that’s what I’ve realised from this.
So to the person I wrote it about:
Hey Harbibo, :)
I’m sorry, I was wrong. I wasn’t trying to hurt you, or make you look/feel bad, I was just in a bad way and took it out on you when I shouldn’t have. I do still love you more than anyone else in this world, and I do still trust you. I don’t think an argument has ever shaken me like that before, and it didn’t even last that long! I hope you know just how much I care about you, I mean jeez, I don’t think I’d be this sappy for anyone else!
Love and cookies,
Kiki :3 xx